From the author of Bleed Like Me, which Booklist called edgy, dark, and turbulent with passion comes another compelling and gritty novel about addiction and forbidden romance, starring a fearless, unforgettable heroine.
Natalie's not an alcoholic. She doesn't have a problem. Everybody parties, everybody does stupid things, like getting in their car when they can barely see. Still, with six months of court-ordered AA meetings required, her days of vodka-filled water bottles are over.
Unfortunately, her old friends want the party girl or nothing. Even her up-for-anything ex seems more interested in rehashing the past than actually helping Nat.
But then a recovering alcoholic named Joe inserts himself into Nat's life, and things start looking up. Joe is funny, he's smart, and he calls her out in a way no one ever has.
He's also older. A lot older.
Nat's connection to Joe is overwhelming, but so are her attempts to fit back into her old world, all while battling the constant urge to crack a bottle and blur that one thing she's been desperate to forget.
Now, in order to make a different kind of life, Nat must pull together her broken parts and learn to fight for herself
Nat is dealing with adult issues, the pressure of
bad decisions breathing down her neck, and in court ordered AA meetings. She is
trying to turn her life around but it does not get any easier because her old
group of friends aren't supportive, and only wants party girl wild Nat back.
then there is also the forbidden romance aspect when she meets a much older
guy, but one who seems to get her.
I don’t know how Desir does it. She manages to keep
readers hooked from beginning to end. She weaves complex characters into a raw
& gritty story that takes you on a roller coaster of emotions. I thought
for sure I’d be creeped out by Joe, given his age. But I wasn’t. I really
thought that he was a good balance of reality for her since he has been in the
position that she is in and what it takes to get better. I was okay with him
& Natalie. Yes Joe was considerably older than her. Yes, he was in
recovery, and had been for several years. But I was rooting for them as a
couple. Yet, by the end I knew that he had made the right decision for the both
of them. I understood the possibility that Natalie was just switching one
addiction for another. She was switching addiction to alcohol to an addiction
to love, to sex. There was something about Joe that made him seem younger than
he really was even though he has been through a lot.
love the character development in this one. Natalie begins to realize a lot
about her life and limits on the how to let her mom in and when to Start
becoming the young adults and she is and taking responsibility for what she
needs to. I like that she keeps her personality that she doesn't become a rule
follower or someone who just goes along with what someone else. But she keeps
her strong woman quality, but realizes she has to put in hard work to be the
kind of person deep down she has always wanted to be. I liked where it left
her. She had accepted she had problems, She formed relationships and she knows
that she has a long road ahead of her. the
overall story was amazing and this is a definite "to read". I would love to see a sequel to this book to
see where Nat lands. Definitely go pick up your copy, this was a good decision for me and a great read.
I look forward in reading more from C. Desir. HAPPY READING :)